I don’t mean to complain, but…

I am at that point again, that point where I have so much to do and so little time to do it that I’m just slowly caving in on myself. There’s barely time for me to breathe, let alone eat or sleep. I don’t know if I just have a really bad habit of overcommitting myself or if every student is this busy right now, but either way, it’s not right. No one should be so bogged down that they can’t even hold a normal conversation without thinking, “Okayy, you can be done talking now. I’ve got things to do!!”

It’s bad. It’s very, very bad. 

And people wonder why college students drink…

If it were a perfect world, I would be able to handle an 18 credit schedule of upper-level classes. I would be able to handle two majors and a minor while also having four-ish jobs. 

Actually, if it were a perfect world, I wouldn’t be in college right now, anyway.

But the world isn’t perfect, and so I struggle. We all struggle. And it’s something we just have to deal with, as sucky as it is.

Forced deep breaths, occasional snacks, and various cat naps — those are what will get us by. Those are the real things college is made of — again, as sucky as it is

I AM READY

School starts Wednesday, and I am ready.

Resolutions…

“I, Leah D——, hereby declare that 2015 will be my most productive year yet. Through sickness, health, stress, happiness, tragedy, triumph, failure, and all else that can happen, I will not–will never–stumble, falter, hesitate, or pause. I will not get lazy or relax or take a break. I will remain determined through it all, determined to dream and achieve like never before. This new year will not be another one that passes idly by, leaving me in the dust to wonder where my time was spent and why I’ve still gotten nothing done. No, this year will not be another dull chapter that merely sets the scene, that is only wasted space I barely remember, pointless filler not worthy of retelling. It will be exciting, brilliant, vibrant, and vividly remembered. It will be retold over and over again with just as much gusto as when it first occurred. Yes, 2015 will be ferocious–in all ways. I promise. I declare.

“And while I do have personal goals I’d like to achieve, such as maintaining my GPA, eating better, walking my dog more, being more tolerant (specifically of stupid/ignorant behavior), socializing more, praying more, and getting published, none of those matter to me as much as just staying motivated and keeping moving. For if I don’t give up, how could the rest not come true?

“So I, Leah D——, hereby declare to not quit. This year will be rough, but it will be worth it.

“And so it must be, for so it is written.

“Bound by contract to her promises. Will be penalized if she breaks.”

That, my friends, was my New Year’s contract from last year: to stay motivated and keep trying no matter what, and by golly, I did it. I really freaking did it.

Happy New Year!

This is my first ever scheduled blog post.

The fact that I can do this is really weird. I no longer have to physically press the publish button in order to launch something into the world. I can just click a time, and when the clock strikes it, some magical computer elf will do it for me.

We truly are living in the future, people.